Switching Gears

So I know I haven't posted in forever...again. But here I am. So I don't know about any of you (all 5 of you)...but I have been in a state of restlessness for several years. Somewhat discontented with the way my life was panning out. Of course I don't mean in relation to my husband or beautiful boys, but just knowing that there is something more for us than how we were conducting our daily lives. I know that God has more for my family--and I believe I know the direction that he is leading us. But I feel stuck, I feel overwhelmed and frustrated. It's one of those times when you see your goal, but it's just out of your reach because of the many things holding you back. So today I just finally broke down-one of those times when you just cry in overwhelming frustration. These past few months have been hard, I feel that God is leading my family away from here, but it has just seemed like one thing after another holds us back. So then I start to doubt. I doubt His call, I doubt that I've even heard Him at all. I've asked for encouragement, i've done my devotions, I've sought after Him and what He wants for us but it's just been a time where He has seemed so silent. So I broke down-through my tears I read John 15:15-17 "I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit —fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. 17 This is my command: Love each other." Sometimes it's not until we are broken that we are able to hear...I thank Him for the encouragement He has brought me today, and I thought I would just share it with you.