Little Miracles

  March 8th is always a hard day for me, it was the day that I lost twins in a very difficult and life threatening miscarriage. As it has gotten easier to deal with over the years I found it a little harder to bear  this year since a new loss was still very fresh in my mind.  However God has an amazing way of sending little miracles to me when I'm going through hard times in my life.   Cardinals have always been a special bird to me ever since I lost the twins.  I remember sitting in a park after my miscarriage by myself thinking about my loss and trying to understand and deal with my pain.  At that moment I looked up and saw two cardinals with their bright red feathers flying around with such beauty and grace.  Some people might not think twice about the event, but to me it was sign from God that my babies were safe in His hands, and it was also a sign that He was listening, and that He loved me.  I was brought back to that moment as I opened my curtains on the morning of March 8th 2010-four years to the day I went into the hospital hours from the loss of my babies.  I looked out the window to find two cardinals perched on the branches of the pine tree across from my window.  Tears immediately started to flow down my face. As I saw that beautiful sign from God it was once again a realization to me that He was listening-and that He loved me no matter how hard the past couple months had been, or even how angry I was at Him.  It was a truly beautiful miracle and as simplistic and meaningless it might be to some, it meant a great deal to me.  I consider myself blessed that God chooses to be interactive in my life-to show me through little miracles that He is always there no matter where I am at in my journey with Him.  It also amazes me how He speaks in a way that I can hear Him.  The way He speaks to me, may not be the same way He speaks to you.  He created us, He knows our "learning style" and will cater to our needs so that we can learn the things He has for us and  be drawn closer to Him in the process.  So I encourage you to look for the ways that God is speaking to you today-no matter how subtle it may be.  Sometimes it's in the "little miracles" that He shows His greatest love.

not only was seeing the cardinals a sign of His love for me
that day-it was also a sign of hope for the future.